The past week has been outrageously super for me. I got to spend time with Lizzy, going to the movies and catching up on all the juicy details of our lives. I also had Thursday and Friday off so I ventured out to the Hellevoetsluis island area of Holland, to see my friend's new place as well as enjoy a few days of beach and relaxation. It was gorgeous weather, good company and sweet times.
I didn't get much sleep last night and intended to nap during any time off I had today and though that didn't happen, I'm not upset at all about it. I spent my morning at the beach reading a magazine, playing in the sea, getting sand in all my crevices, and having good conversation with Eline. We came home and had a relaxing afternoon of playing. But today was extra special for me because after dinner I got to play with Lara, Niek and Tijn and it was so much fun! Of course they all wanted to be spun around and tickled and normally I wouldn't do it because it winds them up before bed but they had the biggest smiles and even though Lara and Tijn had to take baths, she jumped into my arms and was begging for me to go with her. She gave me the biggest hug and let me hug her back which hasn't happened before and it really made me feel good. She's the one I've felt the least close too on account of us having less time to bond (she plays a lot with friends and has all kinds of lessons) so it really made me happy to see that I was making her as happy as I was.
This week I intend to devote more time to making concrete plans to stay and will hopefully have an update in the upcoming days. Now, it's time for bed. Night!
Monday, May 25, 2009
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
bring on the weekend.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I have to settle for screaming in writing since I can't exactly scream out-loud.
Sometimes I get so frustrated then I'm frustrated with myself for letting myself get frustrated! I tell myself to stop whining and focus on the positives but putting up with the same shit on an almost daily basis really works my nerves.
I really love being here and all but it's times like these where I can't wait to not have to put up with stuff anymore. I can't wait to have a job where break times are followed and respected and I don't have to feel guilty for taking them! I can't wait to not have to make small talk when I don't feel like talking or having to pretend I'm okay with things to spare the feelings of others cuz God forbid I say anything negative. I'm so tired of always being the last to be considered when things are planned or when I finally make plans of my own. But most of all, I'm sick of the empty apologies because the same shit continues to happen. Sometimes I feel forced to leave just to make use of my break time! I feel like if I don't have concrete plans, I'll be asked to stay and though I love what I do, sometimes I just want a moment to myself! I HATE feeling like I'm being taken advantage of. Either way doesn't matter cuz even if I do have plans, they're less important than playing, grocery shopping, and basically everything else.
I'm sure I'll be over this by tonight but it's really annoying. Guess it doesn't help that I'm on my period & it's only Tuesday.
Sometimes I get so frustrated then I'm frustrated with myself for letting myself get frustrated! I tell myself to stop whining and focus on the positives but putting up with the same shit on an almost daily basis really works my nerves.
I really love being here and all but it's times like these where I can't wait to not have to put up with stuff anymore. I can't wait to have a job where break times are followed and respected and I don't have to feel guilty for taking them! I can't wait to not have to make small talk when I don't feel like talking or having to pretend I'm okay with things to spare the feelings of others cuz God forbid I say anything negative. I'm so tired of always being the last to be considered when things are planned or when I finally make plans of my own. But most of all, I'm sick of the empty apologies because the same shit continues to happen. Sometimes I feel forced to leave just to make use of my break time! I feel like if I don't have concrete plans, I'll be asked to stay and though I love what I do, sometimes I just want a moment to myself! I HATE feeling like I'm being taken advantage of. Either way doesn't matter cuz even if I do have plans, they're less important than playing, grocery shopping, and basically everything else.
I'm sure I'll be over this by tonight but it's really annoying. Guess it doesn't help that I'm on my period & it's only Tuesday.
Monday, May 18, 2009
I quit.
Just when I think I have it together, I go and do something completely outrageous and over the top. Yes, alcohol is always to blame but I think my latest shenanigan takes the cake!
So I spent a relaxing, quiet evening at home Friday night as well as relaxed and hit the gym on Saturday. Then I decided to head into town for a few drinks. I'm doing my usual tequila & white wine combination, feeling good and having a good time. I found myself feeling so tired and out of it after staying until the bar closed and grabbing food that I figured taking a bus home would be the best idea. Sounds rational, right? WRONG. It would be had I a)gotten on the right bus and b)not fallen asleep! I awoke around 7:30 AM dazed and confused, concluding that I'd been on the bus sleeping for hours! I must have been a sight as I emerged from my coma but luckily the two people around me found it funny and helped me collect my wits.
my life really, truly is stupid.
So I spent a relaxing, quiet evening at home Friday night as well as relaxed and hit the gym on Saturday. Then I decided to head into town for a few drinks. I'm doing my usual tequila & white wine combination, feeling good and having a good time. I found myself feeling so tired and out of it after staying until the bar closed and grabbing food that I figured taking a bus home would be the best idea. Sounds rational, right? WRONG. It would be had I a)gotten on the right bus and b)not fallen asleep! I awoke around 7:30 AM dazed and confused, concluding that I'd been on the bus sleeping for hours! I must have been a sight as I emerged from my coma but luckily the two people around me found it funny and helped me collect my wits.
my life really, truly is stupid.
Friday, May 15, 2009
Note to Self: Don't bike with your mouth open.
Yeaaaaaaaaa. DON'T. Else bugs fly in. Luckily it hasn't happened to me yet but I did watch a girl almost crash her bike after it happened to her. In true bitch form, I laughed. Which means I'm not to open my mouth EVER whilst riding Betty.
Although it's Friday night I'm sitting in front of my computer with no intention of going out tonight, and maybe not even at all this weekend. Why you ask? I'm EXHAUSTED! These past few weeks have been such a chaotic whirlwind and I feel so drained. Nonetheless, I wouldn't have it any other way because I had so much fun!
First there was Queen's Day and Queen's Weekend which I already discussed. May 5th was Liberation Day in Holland and I celebrated that by going into Amsterdam with Lizzy. We saw some cool outdoor concerts and went to an awesome tent party filled with hot guys and delicious finger food. Kijkt naar beneden:
Two days later I left for London, where I was joined by my fabulous sister, our Romanian friend Andreea whom we met in Barcelona and a friend of hers named Angie. We had a fantastic time enjoying the sights and nightlife and drinking our lives away. I have not laughed as hard as I did in quite some time. I'm so happy I got to see my sister again and saying goodbye was a little less painful than last time. But only a little. More pics on facebook:
My fun-o-meter is on overload so a quiet weekend is just what I need.
I've decided that I only want to be home for about 2 weeks before flying back out here. I don't care what it is that I'm doing, so long as I'm here. I love the states, my family and friends but I'm just not nearly done with Europe. There's still so much I need to see and do and I have no desire to break relations with the people I've grown to love. I also have no desire to pack ;-p
I really can't complain about life at all at the moment. I love Holland, I love being able to travel, I love the friends I've made and I really feel content. But right now, my bed is calling me and I must answer. Tot the volgende keer!
Although it's Friday night I'm sitting in front of my computer with no intention of going out tonight, and maybe not even at all this weekend. Why you ask? I'm EXHAUSTED! These past few weeks have been such a chaotic whirlwind and I feel so drained. Nonetheless, I wouldn't have it any other way because I had so much fun!
First there was Queen's Day and Queen's Weekend which I already discussed. May 5th was Liberation Day in Holland and I celebrated that by going into Amsterdam with Lizzy. We saw some cool outdoor concerts and went to an awesome tent party filled with hot guys and delicious finger food. Kijkt naar beneden:
Two days later I left for London, where I was joined by my fabulous sister, our Romanian friend Andreea whom we met in Barcelona and a friend of hers named Angie. We had a fantastic time enjoying the sights and nightlife and drinking our lives away. I have not laughed as hard as I did in quite some time. I'm so happy I got to see my sister again and saying goodbye was a little less painful than last time. But only a little. More pics on facebook:
My fun-o-meter is on overload so a quiet weekend is just what I need.
I've decided that I only want to be home for about 2 weeks before flying back out here. I don't care what it is that I'm doing, so long as I'm here. I love the states, my family and friends but I'm just not nearly done with Europe. There's still so much I need to see and do and I have no desire to break relations with the people I've grown to love. I also have no desire to pack ;-p
I really can't complain about life at all at the moment. I love Holland, I love being able to travel, I love the friends I've made and I really feel content. But right now, my bed is calling me and I must answer. Tot the volgende keer!
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
I like four things in life: girls, tequila, beer & cocaine!
So the past few weeks here have been pretty hectic. Last Thursday, April 30th, was Queen's Day in Holland and my was it crazy! The festivities started last Wednesday and I swore it felt like Spring Weekend at UCONN all over again except on a much bigger level. It's hard to sum it up with words so I'll just post some pictures but I will say that the blog title was just one of the many randomly hysterical lines I heard :-)
These aren't nearly all of the pictures but I don't have that kind of time. Most of you are friends with me on facebook so you can see more there.
In other news, life is not sucking at all at the moment. Things are going well with the family and since the kiddies are on school vacation I get to spend more time with them. Queen's Day was a blast and tonight I'm going back into Amsterdam to celebrate Liberation Day. Then one more day of work and finally off to reunite with Damaly and Andreea (our awesome Romanian friend from Barcelona) in London! Can't wait to see all the sights and to butcher the accent!
Speaking of the English, I met this really wonderful guy a little over a month ago with whom I've been spending quite some time and have grown to really like. Unfortunately, he's moving about an hour by train away from me, which I knew from the beginning but as his moving day draws nearer, I'm a bit sad about it. I know it's not that far and we'll still see each other but the 15-minute bike ride apart we were before was much more convenient. This is nothing compared to the thousands of miles from the people I've grown to love and care about for a year, I'll be away from come July 14th. I am legit dreading that day.
I have some serious split ends I really need to get taken care of as well of a pile of postcards I never wrote/sent out (sorry!).
I'm reading the book, "7 Habits of Highly Effective People" and though I haven't gotten too far in it (I only have time to read at the gym and I haven't been since some time last week) I'm really enjoying it and trying to incorporate many of the methods into my everyday life.
That's all I have to say for now so I'll leave you with a bunch of pictures that basically sum up the past few weeks:
These aren't nearly all of the pictures but I don't have that kind of time. Most of you are friends with me on facebook so you can see more there.
In other news, life is not sucking at all at the moment. Things are going well with the family and since the kiddies are on school vacation I get to spend more time with them. Queen's Day was a blast and tonight I'm going back into Amsterdam to celebrate Liberation Day. Then one more day of work and finally off to reunite with Damaly and Andreea (our awesome Romanian friend from Barcelona) in London! Can't wait to see all the sights and to butcher the accent!
Speaking of the English, I met this really wonderful guy a little over a month ago with whom I've been spending quite some time and have grown to really like. Unfortunately, he's moving about an hour by train away from me, which I knew from the beginning but as his moving day draws nearer, I'm a bit sad about it. I know it's not that far and we'll still see each other but the 15-minute bike ride apart we were before was much more convenient. This is nothing compared to the thousands of miles from the people I've grown to love and care about for a year, I'll be away from come July 14th. I am legit dreading that day.
I have some serious split ends I really need to get taken care of as well of a pile of postcards I never wrote/sent out (sorry!).
I'm reading the book, "7 Habits of Highly Effective People" and though I haven't gotten too far in it (I only have time to read at the gym and I haven't been since some time last week) I'm really enjoying it and trying to incorporate many of the methods into my everyday life.
That's all I have to say for now so I'll leave you with a bunch of pictures that basically sum up the past few weeks:
